| A silver lining perhaps?
What I want, is...what I feel that I need. I realize that what I've wanted up until this point...has rarely been anything I actually need. Although, I suppose I could be wrong. Possible...but probable, I'd like to think not. I have only recently become truly infatuated with this idea or cause, or whatever it is you choose to coin. I cannot really explain this situation or fervent flutter of emotions, but what I can explain is the changing of the tides. I guess it's true, the night is darkest before the dawn, now only if dawn will come. Ha, dawn will surely arrive just as it does every day, but will it arrive in the shade or pigment that I cling to? Only time will tell...well, with a fair amount of devotion and desire added to the mix. Passion. Something I've lacked my entire life...I cannot explain or come to terms with this exactly...I do not know why I have been this way. I cannot being to apologize for the things I've done or caused, all I can do now, is create anew in their wake. I'm trying now, I swear I am.
WE NEED EMOTIONAL CONTENT.
The materialistic chains that bind us all, that have bound me, have begun to rust and will soon break. I feel it in my bones, it's coming, and I will become. I have begun to come to terms with who I am and what I am inside...and I will chisel away until the finished product is exactly what I perceive, slowly but surely. If the product is never finished, well at least I can say that I tried, and that somehow, someway...I will try harder next time. I refuse to let you down again. The journey of Self is quite astonishing, and often frightening. This journey has however just begun, and I honestly cannot fathom where the end may lead. My hope's and dreams...what I seek, has slipped away and become lost, I cannot let this happen again. I will not let this happen again, and the only choice I see now, is to run.
I will run until my legs break.
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| STOP LURKING ON MY FUCKING XANGA.
I SEE YOU.
children will be children I suppose
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| back in the U. S. S. A.!
time to start preparing for the big move.
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| YYYyyyyyyyyYEeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaahhhhHHHHhhhHHhHHHhhhhhhhhhh
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